zen coated with nuts?

Okay, no more internet for me. If only I could turn my mind off as easily as I turn off google.

I'm torn between trying to be zen - this baby has his own agenda. He obviously wanted to be created, and he went about that without consulting me, and it's just luck that I make peeing on a stick a hobby and figured out that I was pregnant at all. This little bugger feels strong and determined.

Or being nuts - surely I can't be so lucky as to get pregnant on my own without any complications. Something has to go wrong - either a miscarriage, or the baby will have some sort of birth defect or Downs or something. It isn't possible that I could get so lucky twice in a row and have perfect children.

Zen or nuts... which one to choose...

I think nuts is winning at the moment, although zen may be coming up from behind. I realized this morning that um, I am not going to be having any more betas. Seeing as I'm giving myself HCG shots now twice a week, um, that would probably throw off any results. And would most likely be the reason why that test wasn't ordered on this morning's lab slip. (duh) So apparently I'm just going to have to wait 11 more days to see if zen or nuts wins out.

Yay.